I just finished an excellent book, recommended by my excellent friend ZoeyJane called lullabies for little criminals by Heather O’Neill. I’m not going to do an official “review” because, well, the book is just so damn good that any words I use to describe it would not do it justice.
So I thought I’d share my favorite part of the book:
Xavier wasn’t put on earth to witness the bad things like Jules and I were. He had been put here to notice lovely things, things that God had created and no one had any complaints about. Leaves turning red in autumn. How when the tide goes out, the shells are left on the shore. I was put here – Jules and I were both put here – to see sadder things. We had to stand in the rain and explain why the world was a lovely place.
O’Neill writes with a raw intensity that I haven’t read very often.
Sometimes, I really think about the lives that we lead, about what we are destined to do, intended to be, expected to touch or to change. Do you think that we are all here for some kind of cosmic purpose, completely out of our hands because, in reality, we are dealing with something that is bigger than all of us?
Now, I’m not talking about God. No. I’m talking about cosmic force. Karma. Fate. The Universes intention for the direction that we take.
I am a very FIRM believer in “everything happens for a reason”. I KNOW this to be true. There are moments in my life where I can literally pinpoint a moment, a decision, that completely changed the course of my life. Then I review the entire butterfly effect that has brought me to the place I am now.
Small example: Saying yes when my ex clumsily asked me to go out with him brought me my son.
Can you see the residual benefits of what happened after that?
I suppose what I’m trying to say is that because I believe everything happens for a reason, I’m learning to take all things in stride. Focus on the good, laugh off the insignificant things, and gain a little perspective on the grand scheme of things. Ultimately, in a month, in 6 months, in a year, 10 years… I’ll look back on this time and try to connect the pieces that make up the completed puzzle that is right then and there.
I’m hoping it will be beautiful.