Three years ago today, there was a guy who took a chance and gave me a kiss.
Today I watched him get more excited over Hot and Fresh Krispy Kreme’s than going to dinner with me.
It’s not his fault I suppose. Or maybe it is. Maybe it’s mine. I’m confused over it. I had hoped, when we first started talking again, that his excitement towards me would have lasted more than a few days.
I think thats my problem. I had hoped. If I had just let it happen, would I feel as frustrated as I do? Or am I just creating this problem in my head?
This is what I wanted. Wasn’t it? I mean, I didn’t say no when he called did I? There is love there. I’m sure of that. It’s just that there are things I want and I just dont know how to communicate to him that I want them.
I think I just need to throw myself into some music and see where it takes me.
Maybe it’s time for some new music…