Take out of your wasted honor, every little past frustration.
Every moment spent wondering if you should have done something different, should have said something else, should have said what you actually meant or even kept it to yourself. All those little moments are gone, wasted. Add them up in your head and look at the total.
Take all of your so called problems, better put them in quotations.
Open a new post. Empty your thoughts to empty your head. Sit. Think. Wonder what others are going to say. Agonize whether you will be understood. Be judged. Worry. Think it over, again and again. Ask. Listen or not. Hope to please, hope to touch. Hit publish, close your eyes, and hold your breath. Keep wondering until the comments or emails come in. Still wonder if you were clear enough, if you had said what you really meant. If you had been real. If you were brave enough to be real.
Walkin’ like a one man army, Fightin’ with the shadows in your head.
“I have something to say” “I don’t want to let anyone down” “If I was totally real, people wouldn’t like it” “I’ve hurt enough people” “It’s not just about me” “I cant say that” “I cant be that” “I cant be myself”
Livin’ up the same old moment, Knowing you’d be better off instead.
Time to let it go. Shake it off. Stop worrying so much about what he thinks, or what she says, or what they wish you could be. You are you. You are the best person you know how to be. How can anyone ask for any more from you? If they loved you, if they cared, they would never ask for more than what you are. They would see your light. They would love to watch you shine. And you shine. You shine so bright that sometimes I have to look away. But the smile stays on my face.
You better know that in the end it’s better to say too much, then never to say what you need to say again.
Here’s your chance. What if you don’t get it again? What if all the courage that you’ve built up ends up falling flat? Where is that going to leave you? Here is your chance. Say what you need to say. Don’t be afraid. Whoever is left standing after you’ve blown everyone away are the ones who deserve to hear your voice.
Even if your hands are shaking, and your faith is broken. Even as the eyes are closing. Do it with a heart wide open.
Why? You really want to know why? Because you fucking CAN. Because you should. Because at the end of your days, you can look back and say, “Yeah, I fucking SAID it. There it is. I said it and I don’t regret it.” Don’t regret anything. Everything you do today, everything you did yesterday, and everything you will do tomorrow is going to effect who you are, who you will become, and who you will touch. Everything happens for a reason. Don’t regret yours.
Say What You Need To Say
Open a New Post. Write. Feel like every word you wrote is exactly what you believe. Believe in yourself. Believe in your words. Believe in your strength. I do. There’s a start. Even if it started with just one person saying “I Believe”. Take a leap from there.