The bad…

• Ever heard of jumping on the bandwagon? How bout riding coat tails? No? Because it seems you are fucking amazing at it. Maybe I’m the fool who would rather be real and have real relationships with people instead of trying to be a part of some “club” where the kids who think they are cool hang out. You name drop, link drop, @ drop and for what? Because you are craving attention? From all the “hot” guys? Or maybe the “hot” girls? I’m over it. So, so, so over it. And it makes me sick and sad to see this because if you want the truth, it’s allll superficial. When shit gets bad, those people won’t give a shit. Oh sure, the virtual pat on the back can be great, but will they actually hurt when you hurt? No. Because they have “admirers” to attend to. They’ll be the first to bail when shit gets rough.
• You know, maybe you feel wronged. I get that. As twisted as it was, I kinda get your reaction. What I don’t get though? You preach about being real. You preach about being a good person, being true, being genuine. All you did was lead people on. None of this was real. At least that’s how it feels now. You chose the people you trusted like you chose what shoes you were going to wear that day. And then you just cut ties? Did you ever think there were people out there you might actually care? Or were you too busy focusing on yourself (as per the usual) and calling it concern for your own well being? Or maybe you were just too busy planning the ultimate demise of yourself and people who don’t deserve to be blown down by your selfishness.
• When it comes to BlogHer, I’m going to be focused. I’m going to try not to get annoyed by the fangirls, I’m going to try not to roll my eyes excessively at the gushing (because I SO will, and it will be bitchy) and I’m going to maximize the time I want to spend with the people that I actually CARE about. Because there is no way in hell that I am spending all that cash to go and try to keep up with the people who think they are awesome. Because the people that are awesome are the people I am going there to meet. With, of course, the exception of my two So Cal luvs that will be there as well. Because obviously I’m going there to be with them too.

The good…

• You’ve handled this with grace. I know it hurt you. I’m sorry for that. But you are so amazing and strong and an inspiration to me always.
• I hate to say it here, but I do love you. I can say it without stipulation to her, and her, and her, and them but if I say it to you, its baaaad. Or oooh, drama filled. Fucking bullshit. And I’m still hiding in my cryptic ways and saying it here. That’s bullshit too. Eh, you know how I feel either way.

Sorry… I’m more bad than good today. I’m PMSing alright?

Got anything that needs to be said?

• Everyone seems to think you are so fucking fabulous… but truth be told, I’m kinda fucking over you. I’m having trouble believing that you are genuine. You come across to me as an ass kisser, stuck up, and kinda slutty at times. Everything I see from you seems like it’s for attention. It’s like you make up a list of people every day that you are going to react to. One person’s on the list today, but lucky if they get there the next day. Unless of course they have a penis. Then they are IN. *thumbs up*
• You are stronger than you know. You’ve taken the first major steps at reclaiming your life, reclaiming yourself. It was the right thing to do. I know you didn’t want to hurt anyone, but you are taking your life back and that is what is most important.
• You as a blogger talking about politics? Freakin awesome. Thank you for being REAL about it.
• But you as a “political blogger” (and there is a difference) makes me wanna puke. You suck at it. You are hypocritical and pathetic for using our presidential race as an excuse to escape from your life.  Do us all a favor and just stop already.
• The way you respond and react to me gets my blood racing.
• The way you respond and react to certain situations irritates me sometimes.
• Thank you for that night. It was just what I needed, and I didn’t even know it.
• Thank you for you. I’ll never underestimate the gift that is you in my life.

Stop thinking so hard about it.

Got anything that needs to be said?

• You are beautiful. Song cliche and all.
• Sometimes you just don’t know when to stop do you? For someone so thoughtful, you just don’t realize when you are being insensitive do you? Do you? Maybe you do, and you don’t care.
• If there is anything to take from all of this, know that your strength amazes me.
• Your children do not deserve to grow up wondering why Mommy is sad all the time. This will effect them. More than anything you might do to him.
• Do you know how much I admire you? I don’t think I tell you enough.
• Happiness, in our lifetime, is something we need to find and hold on to. If you don’t have it, you know you don’t have it. Go find it.
• You ARE full of grace. Please don’t let anyone take that away from you.
• I really hate you. I wish you picked up on that. Too bad for me I’m not the type of person to make it THAT obvious.
• If you feel a sense of dread going home, or knowing someone is coming home, then that is NOT home. That’s an open door prison. I’m speaking from experience.
• I’m not telling you to leave him. I’m telling you to find your happy. You take the steps to get there.
• NO ONE shits sunshine and rainbows, no matter how hard they try to make you believe it. Don’t measure your self worth to the people that try to make you believe that. I bet they have the DARKEST of secrets.
• I wish I could walk a day in your shoes.
• Do you know how insanely sexy you can be?
• You were right about the music, it does say a lot.
• You really need to knock off your shit, its already old and so many people are OVER it. Move on…
• I love you. For you, for all of it.

If you think this applies to you, then maybe it does. Even if its not directly from me. If you see your life in any of these black bullets, I suggest you ask yourself why. Don’t bother trying to figure out who I mean. If you think too hard about it, you might figure out that I AM talking about you. Got anything to add?? Go for it. The comment section is all yours.

*Polls closed for the badge. It’s obvious that #3 won. I’ll post sizes and stuff once I get off my ass and ask MomBabe to do some tweaking for me.